21 more things...

1) I am a romantic, I might come off as tough but inside I am just a pile of mush.

2) Lately, random things make my chest hurt, mostly in a good excessive emotion kinda way - like babies and very old couples and the sound from acoustic guitars and the thought of a white beach and black starry nights.

3) I would do anything, absolutely anything to make my sisters happy, I think of them constantly and my biggest regret will always be not being around to watch my little sister grow up.

4) I would give anything to take my words back that seem to have cracked a friendship so much that even after forgiveness, we cannot seal the crack, it hurts when I think of it. I miss her.

5) I have realized in the past few months that Yemi is my soul mate, and my best friend - always and forever and that I will never really figure out what it is that binds us so close.

6) I have friends with whom I don't talk for months and months and when we do talk, it's like nothing changed and I am so grateful for that.

7) If I were to live my life again- knowing what I know now - I would live my teenage years very differently; however, I do believe that much of who I am now was shaped by those years.

8) As I grow older, I find myself becoming less of a bitch - it feels nice but almost feels like I am so much more vulnerable.

9) I am terrified of outliving my loved ones - it is my biggest fear. I always wish that I be the first one to go, so I would never have to experience that loss and pain.

10) I loved running to the lake by myself and sitting at the edge of that pier- I felt so small in the universe, like my issues and my problems were nothing compared to the magnificent world.

11) I always wish Margarita lived closer, in an ideal world; I would see her and hang out with her everyday. I seriously believe that one day we will live that close and that when we are old and gray we will sit on a porch and laugh and cry about our experiences together. She is like the older sister I never had.

12) I love my parents and many times I wish I had been a better daughter to them in the past. I believe my mom is the strongest and most patient woman I know.

13) I can't wait to have Yemi's babies.

14) I find that I am more hard working now than I ever was in my life, I wish I had been like this in college.

15) I constantly and obsessively think about what my future will be like.

16) I am fiercely loyal.

17) I wish I can sit some stranger down and tell him or her every single detail of my life, everything that has happened to me and then I wish I could tell them goodbye and never see him or her again. It would feel like a lot will be lifted off my chest.

18) I cry. Sometimes because I feel so happy, sometimes because I am so sad and sometimes because I feel so lucky.

19) I really do think I am lucky. I really do think there is someone up there who has my back.

20) I am really emotional right now and don't even know why.

21) Life is good, I really can't complain :o)